The Deity's Cage

crimson_deity @ 2010-03-08T07:06:00

2010-03-08T15:06:47Z

04:07 Why am I still up?! 4 AM, WE SIMPLY MUST STOP MEETING LIKE THIS. #
04:32 Ok, SELF, BED. NOW! ...you will hate yourself tomorrow if you don't sleep before dawn. #
15:20 So I guess I should take the opportunity to wish myself happy birthday. Happy birthday, self. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-03-07T07:05:00

2010-03-07T15:05:24Z

01:03 Either I have the world's worst 花粉症 or I'm legit getting sick. Yes, I returned to Twitter merely to complain. #
01:50 Face-palm moment: -just now- remembering that 3 Japanese Allegra tablets=1 US Allegra tablet. No wonder my hayfever is still going strong #

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睡眠

2010-03-02T17:49:34Z

My sleep schedule has been so bloody out of whack lately that rising by 12:00pm is 絶対に無理. Perhaps if I didn't go to bed between 5am and 7am...

On a totally unrelated note, I'm really sick of my layout being fucked up. I get it, LJ, you don't support S1 anymore. Still, leave my pretty Karyu layout alone. I'm not even Karyuマニア and I like it, so you should too, LJ.

...I'm conversing with LJ. fabulous Perhaps it was better when I -didn't- actually update this thing.

I guess I should probably just crawl back over to Ameba and waste even more time. There's wank going down in the Japanese D'espa fandom over the official Ameblo and recent near-neglect of the FC blog. Go to sleep or grab a snack and watch the shit hit the proverbial fan? An age old dilemma, for sure. XD

Granted, I do have my own opinion on the matter. 実はﾃﾞｨｽﾊﾟｱﾒﾌﾞﾛについて複雑な気持ちを抱いている...but I'm in the FC, so that's to be expected...and not going to start a bitch-fight about it (my Japanese isn't terribly well-equipped for wankin' it up anyway). Besides, I realize that the public blog is far better marketing and whatnot.

You know what? I don't really have any food anyway, so I might as well try some sleep. The wank will be there in the morning.

超久しぶり

2010-02-28T15:36:49Z

Oh god, I'm so awful at updating this! I do manage to update my Ameblo more often, but I suppose that's because it's also Japanese practice and I'm already wasting my life on there over a certain band *coughD'espairsRaycough*. I think I'm going to try harder to keep this updated though. Not sure why--perhaps so my English writing stops sounding like my Japanese writing (read: gank).

Let's see, where did we last leave off here? Right before the D'espairsRay instore? Dear god, that was a long time ago. In hindsight, I feel stupid for freaking out so badly as it went perfectly fine and was rushed enough that I didn't have to stand there trying to come up with wonderful, impressive things to say to each of them while they just stared at me expectantly like during the FC trip (also in hindsight, I don't think I actually came across so much as dumb as just very nervous on the FC trip...is it better to be a spazz than a dumb bitch? No idea XD). That and it helped that I had a live in the very recent past to talk about instead of, well, nothing. XD

Anyway, it was fucking cold waiting in line. I actually may STILL be cold to this day...that's how bad it was. *is a giant pussy about cold weather* I also wore a dress like a dumbass, so I guess that didn't help. Upon getting inside, I was really glad that Zero was first because I brought him a present (if it has not yet been made incredibly and annoyingly apparent, he's my favorite) and that meant I could get rid of the stupid bag before meeting the others. It went down basically like this: he (like Karyu and Hizumi) said something like "Oh, we meet again!" and I was like "yep!" and proceeded with the set phrase for giving a gift, handed over the present and my lulzy letter (I think this is the part where you all laugh at me for being crazy), and then he thanked me and we "shook hands." ...D'espa doesn't actually understand the concept of shaking hands: they just stand there and hold your hand the whole time you're in front of them (kind of awkward on the FC trip because we were up there for so long and I need to gesture wildly when I talk SX). Since my hands were so cold, I was actually kind of ok with having my hand held while I said something about how awesome the Yokohama Blitz live was and he said something to the effect of thank you, see you at the next live.

I'll spare you a play-by-play on the other three, because quite frankly, no one cares. I just told each of them something about how great Yokohama was (I don't think I said the same thing each time, but it's been over a month and I don't remember what I said to who) and they said thanks and see you again soon or something like that. Tsukasa was the only one who spared me the "Oh, we meet again!" embarrassment, but that's only because he was too sick to go on the FC trip so I'd never met him. -_____-

The damn recognition thing. I feel eternally weird and embarrassed about it. I mean, I already stand out due to my foreign-ness, but my hair just sort of seals the deal. Don't get me wrong: I could totally change my hair and will have to in the near future, but I really do like the pink (for lack of a better word, it's fun). Anyway, after the FC trip (which was indeed an incredible, crazy experience minus my being kind of a bundle of nerves over the 握手会), I was actually super nervous about having ticket A9 for the Yokohama Blitz show because I knew I'd be totally visible up that close to the front. Long story short, recognition happened and other people noticed it, so I was even more embarrassed (if they hadn't, I would have chalked it up to being in my head like a sane person). I also learned that if Zero's looking at you, he's probably fucking up to something diabolical...namely, planning on inflicting his germs on you later. I had a very cold, wet walk back to the station because after the last encore, he came over to where I was on the rail, crouched down, grinned, and unleashed his entire mouthful of water in my face. Zero, I love you, I really do, but I do not feel the same way about your germ-y backwash. XD Let's just say I now know for a fact that my makeup really is waterproof...and Zero proof. The girl next to me was all "I'm so jealous!" so I wiped some of the water off on her and she was all excited about that. -_____- It will always amuse me how "passionate" the Japanese FC members are about things like that (or anything related to the band really). I say that with absolutely no malice whatsoever--all of the people I have met thus far have been super nice to me and I'm very thankful. My 8 years in the fandom have been spent as a very unfangirly reserved fan, so this sort of thing is just different for me, I suppose.

ANYWAY. WHOA, TANGENT. My point is, because I stand out so bad and have been going to so many things in such a short period of time, I sometimes feel like I look like a total creeper. Perhaps if I go to another instore, I shall make good on my threat from last time to wear a wig. XD It's a pity I left my long, platinum blonde wig in the States--I don't even know who the fuck I am when I wear that thing. Somehow, I think that might be more creepy than just continuing on reprising my role as "that awkward pink-haired foreign girl." >.<

...ugh, too much D'espa talk! I swear I have a life outside of that! Even band-wise! I need to make an actual live list since I've been to ridiculous amount of them and the spring is starting to look like it will be even more ridiculous (ok, so it includes D'espa 3 times...at least I admit I have a problem--isn't that the first step to recovery? XD). I believe there's a week in April where I might as well just not go to school--I'll be dead from live overdose anyway. School here is such a joke anyway that I doubt it will have any impact on my grades whatsoever.

This is too long already. Here's the TL;DR version for all you sane people: I don't update often enough. The instore that I talked about the last time I could be arsed to post went fine. I'm nuts, have pink hair, and delusions about remaining totally anonymous. Hellz to the yeah!

crimson_deity @ 2010-01-23T07:04:00

2010-01-23T15:04:57Z

00:22 Greetings, Twitter. I don't have any good excuse for neglecting you for so long... #

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SERIOUS BUSINESS

2010-01-15T12:49:21Z

Zero listens to Superchick. YOUR ARGUMENT IS INVALID.

Yes, http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superchick. Best proof out there that he really doesn't understand English Y/Y? ...I am, of course, operating under the assumption that no one who makes awesome music him or herself knowingly submits him or herself to girl-power Christian rock.

I mean, ひとそれぞれ好みはいろいろ and all that good stuff, but Z氏はSuperchickが好きなんて、意外わ。
And now, I do believe it's high time someone stones me to death ElJay style for I have just shared with you fine folks FC only blog information. Le gasp, I know, how could I do such a thing?! </sarcasm>

...uh, long time no, post. It figures I'd break the dry spell with something that offers absolutely zero insight into what I've been up to since coming to Japan.

Oh, well I'm absolutely terrified of the instore I'm going to tomorrow. Mostly because 握手会 are mad-awkward. And I've already made a fool of my ever-conspicuous self in front of 3/4 of the band. MY HAIR IS PINK AND MY PRIDE IS WOUNDED. OH WOE IS ME. I also apparently didn't get my copy of Immortal early enough to get a ticket for the talk before the accursed 握手会, so the part I wasn't dreading isn't even on the menu for me. Ah well.

crimson_deity @ 2010-01-14T07:00:00

2010-01-14T15:00:54Z

05:12 At 2:30 am I discovered my copy of Powerpoint 2004 doesn't open anymore. Tried everything short of a reinstall. No luck. #
05:12 Can't reinstall because I left my Office for Mac disc in the states. #
05:12 Forcing myself to figure out Keynote for the first time to get this presentation done for tomorrow #
05:13 It's 5am. Moral of the story: don't procrastinate, kids! #
05:18 I feel like within a single week far too much computer-related has blown up on me. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-13T07:01:00

2010-01-13T15:01:34Z

01:32 More annoying than failing a test because you didn't study? Failing because you studied the wrong this really hard. Yesterday=fail #
01:32 Well, my kanji test anyway. The rest of the day wasn't anything to write home about either, so to speak. #
01:37 Also just discovered reading the Japanese foreign policy book I bought is far more informative than my course on the subject. #
01:38 I really just need to look up somethings on UN diplomacy, but I'm a bit tempted to keep reading...even though it's 1:40 am. ^^; #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-09T07:01:00

2010-01-09T15:01:55Z

22:47 Near constant headbanging for 3 hours with a runny nose is kind of nasty. Totally metal, but pretty disgusting. #
22:48 ...I suppose the alternative would have been NOT headbanging for 3 hrs, but it was a Dir en grey concert--headbanging is basically a reflex. #
23:14 Also, I'd like to thank Dir en grey for being the only band I've seen to make a XS size tour shirt. #
23:14 Us scrawny people like overpriced band shirts too, you know. XD Especially when they don't fit like tents. #
23:16 Although standing in line for 2.5 hours to buy said shirt? RIDICULOUS! #
23:17 I now know why they started selling tour goods at 3pm when doors were at 6pm. #
23:18 Lines for Space Mountain at Disneyland on a Saturday pale in comparison to Dir en grey merch lines. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-08T07:03:00

2010-01-08T15:03:43Z

03:30 One of my posters chose now to fall of the wall on my head...awesome. Scared the crap out of me and it was just paper. XD #
07:02 Oh hey, the sun's up! I haven't slept at all. Class in two hours...until 6 pm. There's no way I'm going to make it that long. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-07T07:01:00

2010-01-07T15:01:50Z

01:46 I just walked head-long into the bathroom door. I have no one to blame for leaving it open but myself. #
01:47 Additionally but not necessarily related, I changed my picture. Keeping with the times and all that good stuff. #
10:20 I think my poor old iPod video finally gave up the ghost. #
16:39 The only reason I'm typing this paper on campus is Waseda's VPN hates me & thus the Internet can't distract me. #
16:58 Wonder how much of this paper I can write before my battery kicks the bucket? #
17:47 ...and I forgot that my MBP battery likes to die at 58%. 2nd bum battery I've had, but at least it doesn't die at 85% like the old one #
17:56 I'm only at 109 charge cycles so my battery really shouldn't be performing so poorly (supposed to retain 80% capacity at 300 cycles) #
18:02 Why is today so full of technology!fail? #
22:15 Trying to restore my poor old iPod one last time before I give up on it for the time being. :( #
22:32 Well, that seems to have at least got the stupid old thing doing something, but it'll probably be syncing all night #
23:59 If my laptop gives me anymore sass today, I'm drop-kicking it. #
23:59 ...well, probably not actually drop-kicking it...certainly mentally #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-06T07:02:00

2010-01-06T15:02:43Z

02:20 People weren't messin' w/ me: you can find me in the audience on the D'espairsRay 10th Anniversary live DVD... #
02:20 ...however, most of the time you have to know where to look (4th-ish row in front of Zero). #
02:21 I'm only super obvious in the shot of the audience clapping before tainted world. With my hair, it's impossible to hide. XD #
18:57 I really do love some of Deluhi's music, but a few of their songs make me feel like I'm listening to Avenged Sevenfold...in Japanese. #
18:58 Also, first day back in class was rough...mainly because I thought I started at 12pm rather than 1pm. Going to uni an hr early=fail #
20:49 People accuse me of having every variety of social networking account around...however, let it be known that I don't have a Tumblr. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-05T07:02:00

2010-01-05T15:02:48Z

00:24 Just got back from the Jasmine You memorial Versailles live. Probably the most epic yet sad concert I've ever been to. #
00:25 I really want to see Matenrou Opera live again...and maybe Kaya--can't ever have too much of his fabulousness. XD #
03:35 Ok, if I go to bed now, it'll be 1/2 hr earlier than I did last night. Progress toward returning to a "normal" sleep schedule. #
12:54 Let it be known that I managed to get up before noon today...barely. Hey, 11:35 is still before noon. #
14:04 I got up before noon specifically to talk with someone on Skype. Seems that person has stood me up. Fighting the urge to nap. #
14:08 Trying to write a paper with zero instructions or guidance is painful. No wonder I've put it off for two weeks. #
14:26 I wonder if I can really write 7 pgs on Higashi Mineo's "Child of Okinawa"? It isn't a terribly long story. #
16:38 ついにディスパのDVDが届いた‼ yfrog.com/4gbg6lj #
20:03 Oh, and irony abounds: my DVD wound up being sent via Japan Post after all. I probably could have gone to the post office to get it. #
23:49 just learned a metric shitton of new kanji/vocab from reading the instructions for a box of Japanese hair dye. #
23:50 Apparently vanity can help one attain knowledge. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-04T07:02:00

2010-01-04T15:02:55Z

00:09 Why does my future seem to hold nothing but the possibility of grueling tests? JLPT, GRE, Foreign Service test... #
00:09 ...and I don't even know what I want to do with my life. Besides get into some sort of useful graduate program. #
00:10 Yeah, I'm being a buzzkill, but my mother brought up how I need to figure out what to do with my life once again. #
03:39 I wonder if it's possible for a cold to turn a person nocturnal...b/c this one has rendered me only motivated at night. More so that usual. #
04:16 Ok, cold, I don't care if you want me to stay up and work, it's 4:15 AM and you're not the boss of me. XD #
04:16 Commence sleep sequence. #
13:50 I wish people would learn that when I unfriend them on FB, it generally means I don't want to be--oh I don't know--friends. #
13:59 Because I'm sorry folks, but the Twilight vampires aren't badass at all. They sparkle... #
14:00 ...I sparkled too in 2000 when glitter lotion was all the rage and I was the polar opposite of badass. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-03T07:01:00

2010-01-03T15:01:11Z

16:02 I feel like really hunkering down and studying Japanese...now that I have to write a paper in English. Irony. #

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crimson_deity @ 2010-01-02T07:01:00

2010-01-02T15:01:31Z

03:11 Ok, I know I haven't been active in the fan community on LJ in ages, but why so much hate for the "Redeemer" album? Makes no sense to me. #
03:12 These age-long breaks from attempting to blog (in English) don't tend to make me want to start again. #
03:59 Despite my constant precaution-taking, I've got a nasty cold AGAIN. Germs, one day I will manage to outwit you! Mark my words! #
17:10 As luck would have it, I got on a train with jammed doors. Took them 15 min to get them open. Stuck in 東新宿 atm. #
19:45 Ok, so I was only stuck in 東新宿 for the 15 minutes it took for the totally backed up Fukutoshin to send another train. #
19:45 Still, irony prevails considering I didn't get on the Yamanote because of "human-accident" induced delays. #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-31T07:04:00

2009-12-31T15:04:45Z

01:57 The verdict seems to be that Zero recognizes me from the FC trip. #
01:57 Whatever the case, he decided to crouch down in front of me and unleash a mouthful of water in my face... #
01:58 ...not sure how to react to that. I do hope he isn't as sick as he was on the trip. D: #
04:49 Why am I still awake? #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-30T07:02:00

2009-12-30T15:02:59Z

02:12 So Neowing actually shipped my DVD JP Express Pelican. Going to the post office is going to do me no good. #
23:03 Home from the D'espa live. What little voice I had to begin with is now completely wrecked. #
23:04 My #A9 FC ticket got me in the 1st row between Hizumi and Zero. <3 Never in a million years did I expect to be there. #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-29T07:04:00

2009-12-29T15:04:43Z

01:11 Perhaps chopping off all my hair just in time for legit Tokyo winter was a poor idea--my head's noticeably colder now. #
02:05 It has now become incredibly obvious that I missed a spot redying my roots tweetphoto.com/7449785 #
20:55 I really hate when there's too much bg noise to make sense of the messages on my 留守番電話. #
20:56 ...esp. when it has to do with the delivery of my D'espa DVD. Bah, why did I order that online anyway?! #
21:06 The front desk for my building is closed until the 4th--my mail box is in there. I wonder what Japan Post is going to do about that? #
21:07 ...as in, do they just keep trying to deliver a package or do I need to go to the post office to pick it up? #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-27T07:00:00

2009-12-27T15:00:36Z

02:26 I know if you show up @ comiket at 10am you wait over an hr to get in, but what about noon? I hear entrance lines calm down in the afternoon #
02:29 The dilemma: I have cut-the-line passes for the sixh concert @ comiket @ 12:30. There was something else I needed to do @ 11am. #
02:31 ...that something else is more of a "would be disappointed if didn't do" than "absolutely need to do" #
13:46 Not having to call the US pays off: my Softbank bill is down to $64 this month. My AT&T bills were never that low #
13:46 I consider that pretty good since I don't have outgoing landline service #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-25T07:02:00

2009-12-25T15:02:39Z

21:13 What's the difference between Tiger Woods and Santa? Santa knows to stop at three hoes. #
21:13 Merry Christmas from Tokyo! It's over in 3 hour for me. #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-24T07:03:00

2009-12-24T15:03:25Z

02:12 I didn't know the lightsaber chopsticks were available in the US! Hope my dad doesn't know that...or at least enjoys the Japanese packaging #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-22T07:04:00

2009-12-22T15:04:10Z

00:35 I'm really bad a interpreting graphs in Japanese, so tomorrow's 20 min presentation is going to be a treat I'm sure #
00:36 I'm also really bad a presenting...in most languages. #
16:46 Man, it's only 4:45 pm and I'm already ready to crawl into bed and hibernate. #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-21T07:02:00

2009-12-21T15:02:59Z

00:51 My radio/CD player is such a cheap piece of shit that I have to ground the antenna on something (or me) to hear over the static. Fail. #
02:33 Listening to the Return of Maniac Station makes staying up learning mostly obscure kanji much more bearable #

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crimson_deity @ 2009-12-20T07:02:00

2009-12-20T15:02:49Z

00:11 Official Star Wars lightsaber chopsticks?! Oh, Japan... yfrog.com/4gwqicj #
00:12 I picked up a pair the Luke Skywalker ones to send to my dad, but I'm a little tempted to go back & get the Darth Vader ones too... #
00:17 ...actually, I kind of want the whole set. I'd be damn classy to whip those shits out when I've got guests over for dinner or something. XD #
20:40 I finally went and made a hair appointment. I've only been talking about doing that for what? Two months now? #
23:03 ...just had the second brownout of the day. A legit blackout would not be appreciated as it's far too cold out. #
23:48 Man, my dad sent me a copy of the family xmas card: my younger sister looks older than me in the photo. #
23:48 Then again, it is from my lame dark-penciled-in-eyebrow era of fail, so go figure. #

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